Today I was deliberately exposing myself in an imaginary. transition phase/shuffling phase in which I am trying to "find" myself. It is an effective way to remain here. I've been ignoring the shuffling phase, because I saw it as the distance that must be traveled to arrive at my destination.

Instead of seeing that I am already here. There is never anywhere to 'get to'. Nor any way to 'be', because I am already 'that' in which I am here, the only way that I can direct what is here, is to, first, be what is here. That is common sense.

If I cannot even direct this being here, then I am just along for the ride with no direction of my own will.